IVF

How Hope Makes a Path in the Pit

The sun sank below the dusty window ledge. I didn’t bother getting up off the couch to turn on the lights. All I wanted was to stay curled up in my husband’s arms, our toy poodle nestled against my neck. For hours, our little family sat there, grieving in the dark. Going through a failedContinue reading “How Hope Makes a Path in the Pit”

Seeking God More Than Answers

Words swam before my eyes in a blur of medical jargon. My husband, Colin, and I were skimming paperwork in the fertility clinic waiting room. We had already been through several years of tests and treatments –– all of which failed. Now our doctor was recommending we try in vitro fertilization (IVF). Everything within meContinue reading “Seeking God More Than Answers”

God Never Wastes the Space Between

“I’m sorry to tell you it didn’t work,” the doctor said gently, then exhaled: “We didn’t get any embryos.” And with her sigh, my dream of motherhood disintegrated. It had been a long haul to reach this point. Tests, medications, surgeries. Unsure diagnoses, ineffective treatments, bills upon bills. And all for what? One tiny, pink,Continue reading “God Never Wastes the Space Between”

Blogspiration and the nudge-nag phenomenon

People blog for all sorts of reasons. Political, religious, financial; about sports, about entertainment, about how to cook beef bourguignon, or solve the Syrian refugee crisis, or upcycle a thrift store-salvaged dresser into a shabby chic armoire. IMHO, the ultimate motivation underlying all these reasons for blogging is rooted in a universal human presupposition. WeContinue reading “Blogspiration and the nudge-nag phenomenon”

You are not alone

I sat, staring at the backyard. My eyes perceived the scenery before me – the pale sky, the slender birch trees, the too tall grass – as my mind envisioned children laughing, rolling down the hill, blowing puffs of dandelions, and running to me for a kiss after falling down and scraping a knee.Continue reading “You are not alone”