Our retrieval is scheduled for 10 a.m. tomorrow. I don’t have much to say other than that I’m thankful to be moving forward with this process.
We had another GracefulWait women’s meeting this evening, and one of the main topics of discussion was fear and anxiety. If I’m a pro at anything, it’d be that. You name it, I’ve worried about it, especially when it comes to medical issues. Colin thinks I should get some type of filtering software – you know, the kind people use to block porn – and instead use it to prevent access to WebMD and health chat forums.
A ton of people must be praying for us, because as we prepare for the big procedure tomorrow, I am surprised to find myself not freaking out. I’m definitely nervous and concerned about the outcome, and wouldn’t say I’m completely at peace about everything. Yet I feel like I am safe, that I’m being protected and cared for. It’s hard to describe, and I can only attribute it to God’s faithfulness and sustaining grace.
While reading through the Psalms, I recently came across a verse that I’ll be clinging to over the next several days: “When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul” (Psalm 94:19). And I’ll keep repeating my mantra that has gotten me through many an invasive and awkward gyno procedure: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (Philippians 4:13).